4.30am

I am awake at this wee hours and realized that i don’t have house key with me and thus, can’t activate my house alarm.

I tried to recall where my key is but i couldn’t. Shouldn’t be in my car but i think most likely it is now.

Mum will be grumbling again. I will keep myself awake till she is awake and go to market.

I am so forgetful these days. How could I improve?

Also, someone is ignoring me again. Pain. I don’t know how to describe my feelings here.

It’s 6.35am now, mum is awake and i found my key in my car!

Time to sleep…

One (or more) Grateful / Happy / Meaningful Moment per Day

1-Jan: I brought mum for New Year lunch, just the 2 of us spending time together

1-Jan: Singing together and holding hands with him in the car while sending me home. Song: Forever Love, 唯一, Kiss Goodbye

2-Jan: New Year lunch with him @ Poco Homemade. Open heart discussion. Hope something will change after this and the hours spent are worthwhile.

3-Jan: Back to work after 2 weeks leave. NY resolution is not to stay in the office until late hours, so today I went back home around 8pm. MeiMei shouted “YiYi” when saw me at the gate and happily telling me that she helped to wash my slippers, so cute

4-Jan: Received greeting cards from Japan and Australia~

5-Jan: Received a box of free tissue from Esso and listened to a heart-warming story about Dick and his son via 988.

6-Jan: Chicken Prosperity Burger!

7-Jan: Yummy Umai-Ya Friday destress dinner courtesy of him. Watched HK drama with mum non-stop for 6 episodes without realizing it’s alredy 3am!

8-Jan: Attended boss's wedding dinner. You have all my blessings

9-Jan: --- (Didn’t put in the entry on that day itself and can’t think of any now )

10-Jan: --- (Didn’t put in the entry on that day itself and can’t think of any now)

11-Jan: Researching salon for perming and was trying to find a cheaper one.

12-Jan: Found amazing website with great deals!!! Purchase a discounted voucher for perming, yeah~  Kinda Malay type of salon coz all stylist are Malay, but dun care la, just give it a try! Cheap mar…

13-Jan: Dinner with Uni gang. Purchased voucher again! This time is for Callus Removal + Leg Scrub + Leg Massage + Toe Nail Shaping. Time to treat my legs

14-Jan: Went for hiking @ TTDI after so so long! It was great! Caught in a rain and got wet too

15-Jan: Took some food product photos, hopefully my photos can be used la! Looking forward to see them at the stall

16-Jan: Went for a dogs adoption activity @ Jaya 1. Puppies are so cute! Again, purchased more vouchers, this round is makan and facial. I am addicted!!! Have to stop “bong chan-ing” liao. Spent so much

17-Jan: Bought a pair of sunglasses, i spent RM208 in less than half an hour

18-Jan: Wearing my new sunglasses while driving to work, i feel great and cool!

19-Jan: 20273 steps today!

20-Jan: Looking at some old photos and tears rolled down uncontrollably when I saw this picture.

Not forgetting our first dog – Lucky

I wish both of you are healthy and living happily in another better world! Miss you~

2011 New Year Resolution

What is my NY resolution?

I didn’t really think about it but last night after he went back, I was lying on my bed and just randomly put in my thoughts in a sms and sent to him.

What I have written?

New Year 2011 Resolutions

1. To finish up my thesis, viva and graduate in Aug.

2. To continue to gain experiences through my current job, work smart and hard. 

3. To have a balance life again, to have time for myself doing things that I enjoy.

4. To spend quality time with my family members, especially my mum.

5. To have a change and eventually have a more fulfilling relationship with him. We need to get back the initial passion love towards each other.

P/s: From now onwards, I will end every post with a photo. Just a random photo, the 1st photo that appeared in my mind that I wanna share.

Today’s photo: Keychain with me and my mum, sitting in the cable car to Giant Buddha at Lantau Island, HK. They snapped tourist’s photo and make it into a package for sale, photo with brochure, keychain etc. We bought a keychain only, HK$98.

I am Back~

It has been so so long...........
But, different story now.
I have got a new CPU, with better performance and speed.
Blogging will not take ages anymore.
However, I have to finish my thesis writing first.
Soon soon...
Then, besides working hard and smart, I wanna get back my life!
Looking forward the days whereby I can spend time editing and share my photos here with you.
Soon soon...
Today is 30-Dec-10, time flies and the new year is coming, whether you like it or not.
Wishing you a Blessed and Happy Happy New Year 2011 :)
May this be a year full of joy and wonderful moments ;)

P/s: This photo was taken during the recent SG Marathon. I am sharing it here to remind myself to be grateful and cheerful everyday. Put a nice smile on your face everyday! Life is wonderful and we should be happy everyday!

It's My Birthday ;)

Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday to ME,
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday,
Happy Birthday to ME~~~

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Frustrated Me

Damn it!!!

I wrote an entry and posted some of the photos taken with my new babe in Windows Live Writer at 11pm.

Since then, I am trying so hard to publish the entry to my blog.

Guess what, after an hour ++, I still can't get it done.

"The operation has timed out", all I get is this stupid error message.

What's wrong with you?

I just want to publish my blog entry, why can't you be cooperative abit?

Damn damn damn, I am so frustrated!!!

我的新宝贝

感觉真的很奇怪。

Survey了不少时间，买或不买？买？不买？

会犹豫不决，是因为最近花了不少钱在保健，当银行的存款数目一直往下掉 + 没有经济来源，我就愈感压力。

尤其是在现在这样的情况，是应该都把钱存起来，只用在应该花费的地方，而不是花在不必要的物品。

好了，原本已经决定不买了，因为暂时买不到便宜货。

那里知道，星期天的一个广告，我的心又泛起了涟漪。

买或不买？

好吧，就去看看！

价钱OK就买，钱是可以赚回来的。

好啦，问了价钱，心里又再打战了！

这是一笔不小的数目，一下子一次过拿出来用掉，真的很心疼，不舍得。

就买吧，我那么想要，又有兴趣要学多一些。

现在买就可以立刻用了咯！

好了，决定买了，就不要再想别处或以后买可以便宜一些，多花的就通过教补习再赚回来吧！

要去买的时刻，我却又放慢脚步了。

奇怪的感觉来了！

我很紧张耶，好像不能相信我所梦寐以求的事情终于要实现了。

很紧张，没能够立刻就冲进取去买，却在外面坐了一会儿。

这个时候，我最希望身边的人可以鼓励鼓励我一下，或者cheer up我一下。

Ooooi。。。不是决定要买了吗，快点进去买啦，再拖parking又要给多一点了。

好啦，好啦，最后是我自己崔促我自己了。

1，2，3。。。 购买的过程就简略吧。

新宝贝是我的了！我有了新宝贝！

回家后，我就开始啃manual booklet。

奇怪奇怪，没有很兴奋喔。

可能还在自责当中，为什么花那么多钱。有或者是后悔花超过预算的数额。

好了，累了，睡觉吧，明天会更好！

今天起床第一件事，摸摸宝贝，设定一些基本settings。

吃过早餐，皮开始痒了。

原本要先看过一轮manual booklet才开始实习的嘛！

随便吧，爽的感觉开始来了。

这里拍一下，那里拍一下。

兴奋，喜悦，开心，满足，雀跃，该有的感觉现在全都来了！

我现在开始会很忙了。

忙写论文，忙explore我的宝贝，忙教补习！

最重要还是，凡事感恩 :)

 

新年很快乐

哈哈，我知道我的祝贺似乎是有点迟，但‘迟到好过没到’嘛 :)

HAPPY   牛 YEAR  :)

祝大家步步高升，心想事成，万事如意 :)

 

我家的雪梅，种在泥土的！

恭贺新禧

恭喜发财

万事如意 + 心想事成 + 迎春接福 + 恭喜发财

 

福到 + 生耕致富 （这四个字特别有意思，紧记紧记！）

 

新年的装饰都是我布置的 :)

假花

想念您！

更多的雪梅

更多更多的雪梅

 

希望这一年大家会抱持希望，积极，乐观的过每一天 :)

Merry Christmas + Happy New Year + Happy Holidays :)

It's Christmas today, Merry Christmas to all :)

Despite being busy or stress with all the things in our daily life, everyone seems to be in holiday mood during this year end round.

It's time to reflect and flash back what we have been through, what we have learnt, what we have been giving and receiving, what we have achived, what we have done through out the year.

At the same time, let's look forward for a greater year ahead!!!
More wisdom, more health, more happiness and more wealth :p

I wish you a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year :)

I will end this entry with one of my favorite picture.
Just took it last week @ Cameron Highlands.

Hooray!!!

Yes, I have done my last experiment today.
I am not going to do any more experiment.
I have set it this way and I will just stick to the results that I have got.
No more repeating of experiment!!!

Please clap clap and hooray for me!!!
Gimme some encouragement and motivation :)
From now onwards, 100% thesis writing.

All the best to me!!!
Aza aza fighting!!!
Gambate!!!

Always On My Mind

另一首触动我心弦的歌。
其实很久以前就知道这首歌了。
昨晚仔细的听，留意着歌词，眼泪就涌出来了。



Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I am so happy that you are mine
If I made you feel second best
Girl I am sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't die
Give me
Give me one more chance to keep you satisfied
Satisfied

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

出游记 A Road Trip

明天将会驱车到关丹去。
我驾车哦！
驾我的Kenari哦！
我长得这么‘大个女’都还没有真正试过驾长途车outstation.
明天就是我的第一次了 :)

这趟到关丹去是替YS做姐妹。
嘻嘻是的，我和PG又会再和新郎+他的兄弟们交手了。
其实我们是可以和新娘一起去的。

不过，我最后还是决定要自己驾车去。
原因：
1.我想要试下自己驾长途车的滋味。
2.这会是一个新的体验。
3.尝试做一些从来没有做过的事，挑战一下自己，生活就会更有乐趣 :)

（当我决定要自己驾车的时候，妈妈说：“那就慢慢驾咯！” 我知道的，她对我的驾驶技术很有信心，所以她也不会太担心，而是支持我的决定。我爱你，妈妈。）

我期待明天的旅程，我一定会尽情享受的 ;)
东海岸，我来了！
Kuantan, I am coming :)

Congratulations to Jacq :)

Tada, as promised...

All the 美女 leng luis in WHITE :)

Me In White?

Actually to tell you the truth, I am pretty excited for the coming Saturday :)
I am going to become a 'ji mui' (accompanying sister for the bride) for the first time!!!

Saturday is J's wedding.
She is going to have a garden wedding ceremony at Carcosa Seri Negara.
Garden wedding!!! So nice, I havn't attend any before.
Must be very grand yet warmth.

But of course for me, a beach wedding still remain at the top of the list :)

She has got a theme and everyone of us are going to wear in WHITE.
Oh white, white dress is going to make me look fat!
And my arms sure look awful, I have dark arms you see.
However, what to do, have to lor :p

I have got myself a white dress, a pair of white heels and I am going to carry a white bag.
Ooo imagining me in all white, like a fairy perhaps *cough cough* haha

Stay tune, I am going to post some photos after the ceremony ;)

It's A Beautiful Day

Today is the 7th day of my regaining-a-healthy-body program.
I woke up around 8.15am this morning and I went to Taman Jaya for my routine 30 minutes-walk-exercise.

While I was walking, I was listening to the radio with my handphone, enjoying the morning sunshine, looking at the people around and admiring the greeneries.
I found that I am in happy mood and I really enjoy doing this by myself!

I saw a mother jogging in front of me and eventually she stopped at her husband and baby.
They were waiting for her to finish.
Before that, I saw her husband running around the park.
The mother must be taking care of the baby that time while the father was running.
What a healthy family!
I am going to do this as well if I have my own family in the future :)

I Can Do It :)

I am starting my detoxification and weight-reducing program today!!!

It's 8.15pm now, I have just taken today's last sachet of nutritional meal.
I am drinking the last 800ml of water for today.
Just now I walked for 35 minutes at the park.
I am doing good!!!

46kg + a healthier body, I am coming!!!

A Wild Dream

I just had the most unbelievable dream while I was taking a nap about an hour ago.

He proposed to me and it was a surprise one!!!

He planned this event with all his family members waiting at my 2nd aunt's house.
Then, I was brought to the place by my family members.

When I was dreaming, I couldn't believe that this is happening to me (of course it was so real that you won't be able to differentiate it was actually a dream).

We are (yes still) currently in the cold war period.
We are having some serious thoughts to determine whether we should continue to be together.
It's impossible that he is proposing to me at this moment!

In my dream, I remembered he told me "You said I don't have much time for you, so now this is it!"

The conclusion is 日有所思，夜有所梦.
When your mind is occupied with some thoughts, you are going to have it in your dream when you sleep.

Anyway, this was just a dream.
It's not going to happen in real.
I knew it.
I am just way too far from this.

我的学生们

今天是我教补习的最后一天。
刚才晚上十点多上完最后一堂课后，我整个人感觉轻松了许多。
当然，现在我唯一的收入也没了。

自从五月开始教第三位学生后，很多时间都被补习占用了。
尤其是在学生们的考试季节，会花更多的时间加课。

感觉轻松之余，心里也有点不舍。

今晚的Justin好可爱（相比之下，很多时候他都固执得让我咬紧牙根），蹦蹦跳跳的，演这演那，我还取笑他以后可以去当谐星。
最让我动容的是当他问我：“那你明年还会教我补习吗？”

小孩子‘有时候’还真的蛮可爱的！

我想要继续和这三位学生联络，毕竟我们也相处了一段时间。
John，是最久的了，不知不觉我已经教了他两年。
从他那儿，我学习培养耐心。
Jamie，教她的时间最短了，花最多时间的也是她。
只可惜，我觉得我没有帮到她什么。
Justin，遗憾的是，没能跟他从头到尾都讲华语。
他还是不肯多讲华语，真是一个很有自己想法的小男孩。

在不久的将来，他们还会记得我吗？
说到底，我也只是他们生命中来去匆匆的一位过客。
无论如何，我很谢谢我的学生们，还有他们的妈妈。
我想要和他们三位保持联络，空闲的时候就去家访一下 :)

Me and Myself

I am going to spend time with myself tomorrow, yes only me and myself :)
Everyone should learn to feel comfortable even when they are alone.
We need to have time for ourselves.
I believe it's one way to know ourself better, right?

Quote from my friend KY, "Peace of mind derives from within, your inner self!"

I am going to have peace of my mind tomorrow :)

Random

I am so down to say this, but I feel like letting go.
I don't know how to solve it and I don't know how to get myself out from this miserable stage!!!
What should I do?